Body weight, Banns and Banter!

Sunday was lovely :) We got up after an hours less sleep thanks to the turning back of the clock, got dressed up all smart and headed off to Church. :) We'd been told to turn up before ten, as our Banns would be being read first. When we got there, the congregation were already singing. We were convinced we'd missed it. Thankfully they did it right at the end instead :)


It was really strange, i was so nervous and i knew there was no reason to be! They called both of our full names and pointed us out to everyone :p It was a mixture of embarrassing, nerve racking and exciting :)

After church we pottered off to Thorsby Market and wandered round for a couple of hours :) Had a bite to eat when we got there and did lots of chatting and giggling :) Adam bought me 3 new dresses for our honeymoon :) <3

We nipped home quickly to wrap Harveys present and write his card, and then went to his 2nd birthday party which was lovely :)

When we got home we just chilled for a bit while Adam watched the match, then we nipped to south forest to pay some more of the wedding off, then went to the Dukeries for dinner :) So it was a rather lovely day :)



I been working out loads lately and eating really healthily, 200 sit ups a day, jogging, swimming, salad etc and we took all my measurements today, i have lost 5.5lb in 2 weeks!!! eeek! Im so excited! Wish it would come off faster though!

Must try harder :p

Living the dream??

Anyone who knows me well will know that it has always been a big dream of mine to travel to have a gap year, and travel to poor countries to work in orphanages, teach in schools and help to build communtites.
At the moment, there are two main things which are stopping me:
*Relationships
*Money

After the wedding i am going to start a 'Living the dream' fund. I plan on putting a minimum of £5 per week to one side, to save for a trip of a lifetime.
The relationship side to it is a little more difficult. Ideally i would like to go for about 6 months, but would make do if i could do 3 weeks, but maybe once a year for a few years.
I would find it incredibly difficult to leave my family, especially Adam. So either, we would have to try and save double and work around jobs to allow us both to go, or we could have to come up with an effective way of communicating whilst i was away.

However i get there, i need to make sure it happens at some point in my life. I need to get out there and make a difference, i will not be content until i have done that.

My Dream = http://www.globalvolunteernetwork.org/kenya/

I feel blue :(

Im fed up. Iv spent months trying a number of 'sensible' diet plans and got nowhere. Im done with doing it the sensible way now. It has achieved nothing. I refuse to spend whats meant to be the happiest day of my life feeling fat and horrible. I have 11 weeks to go, and want to lose AT LEAST 1 stone, if not 1.5 by then. I will do it! Nomatter what it takes i will do it.

:'(

Just a quickie :)

Only a quick update tonight.. Had a rather nice day at work today, other than spending the first two hours with the alarm going off, it flew by.. didnt go for lunch til 2:45, only had 25 mins so i could leave early. After lunch i went straight to boots to type some work up for Liesl, had a bit of a chat with Karen and the girls while i was there :) Then got back to work at about 4:30, only having 25 mins left :)
I hopped on the 5pm bus, Adam picked me up at the bus stop, we nipped for a milkshake, then Adam left me in the (freezing) car for no less than an hour, while he went into Comet :) When he came out, he presented me with a beautiful Disney, pink netbook :)
Which is what im on now :)
I love it.
Now we can both be snuggled up on the sofa, he can game and i can blog :) Perfectimo :)
Got home to our little princess, played on some peppa pig games for a while, then brushed her hair when she got out of the bath, read her some bedtime stories and put her to bed :)
She's such a sweetie :)
Off to bed now so i can get up early to do my homework for contact lens training :/
Got to wear pink tomorrow too :)
Night night xxx

Ugh, its been like a month!

Well im not even going to attempt to catch up on all the time iv missed :( I'll run through the main points quickly, but there is one reason iv decided to blog today and i'll tell u all about it in a minute.
At the start of Feb, i was really poorly again. Just in my stupid state where i dont know what im doing and cant concentrate on anything etc. Tried to fight it for a couple of days, continued to go to work, which appeared to make me worse, slept through the whole of my dinner breaks for a couple of days and went to bed at 7pm. Over the first few days i got more and more confused, to the point where i could hardly dress myself, until i went smack on my face at work, completely out of it. Scared them all to death, then spent an hour and a half in an ambulance. The paramedics were convinced that its a mixture of heavy stress/depression. Things from my past have just caught up with me, and adding all that ontop of the stress of the wedding, our current money situation and mum and mama being ill, just makes me switch off every few months and have a break down.
They were really helpful in the ambulance though, we got more help from them during that 90 minutes, than we did during the whole 5 days i spent in hospital last year!
They have told me a few different things to try, to try and stop it happening again, or to control it if it does. So fingers crossed on that one!

On a more positive note... Iv had my letter to say iv completed my course and will be getting my payrise!! :) My certificate has arrived too, which has taken pride of place on the wall at work :D
The payrise will be so useful in the run up to the wedding, and its made me really determined to whizz through my next course to get my next one :p

And heres the part iv been looking forward to blogging about:
We had the fittings for the little bridesmaids today! :D Bryony, Devon, Libby and Harry all together! They looked absolutely gorgeous!! It was quite emotional, they are all sooo sweet :')
They just tried random dresses on to get the sizes right. Its gonna look amazing :)
They all got on really well too, it was nice for them to all meet before the big day. Libby kept snuggling Devon, and she plonked herself next to Harry and started chatting and colouring with him :)
Then we went back to grandmas and she said 'Can i sit next to the girl with the red hair on your wedding day?' :')
Then, before we left, she said 'We're all best friends now!'
It was so nice to see them getting on so well. Me, mum, Devon, Harry, and Libby etc went back to grandmas after and they all sat playing with playdough together :)
Then, after some lunch with grandma we set off back to Mansfield and met Bryony and Steven at Jangos :)
They ran around in there for about an hour and burnt off some energy :) We joined them to play basket ball at one point which was fun :)
Then we dropped Barbie and Taz back home, nipped to the shop then came home :)
Bryony and i sat and played with her new Bratz game, then i read snow white to her and got her ready for bed :) She wore the new pajamas iv bought her :)
Just realised i havent mentioned this yet, Bryony and Steven are gonna be living with us now at weekends :) They only really moved in today but i totally love it already :)
Its awesome having a little princess to play with :) And it'll be nice for Ste and Adam to have some more time together :)
When we got home tonight Adam had painted Bryonys new room pink for her :) It looks lovely. My dads gonna bring my old bunk bed thing with the desk underneath on Thursday so we can set that up for her :) She's decided where most of her things are going to go, she's stuck some peppa pig stickers on her door and we've said we'll make her a 'Bryonys room' door sign tomorrow :)
Im really having to work hard to stop myself spoiling her rotten though. I just really really want it to be a complete princess room for her, to help her settle in.
Iv managed to get some bedding, posters and a little set of plastic drawers from a friend, which is really nice. And i bought her new pajamas, some more bedding, curtains, a set of drawers, a few new clothes, a princess book, some hair accessories, some wellies, a bratz game and a teddy :)
I keep seeing things that i want to get to make it better for her, but will hopefully be able to after the wedding :) One of my friends from Masque said she's got some stuff she'll bring for her too :)

Im really loving having her here :) Its gonna be sooo much fun :)

xxxxx

Joy by name, Joy by nature :'(

It was the funeral today. It was really hard. Seeing them carry the coffin in really brought me down to earth with a bump. I just cant get my head around the fact that she's gone. She was so bubbly and full of life the last time i saw her. She should have had so much time ahead of her.

We sang 'Easter Hymn' and 'You raise me up'. It was amazing to sing with the girls again.

Something really strange happened too, just as we all began to sing, a little black butterfly flew in and landed on the music stand :') Im not one who normally believes in 'signs' and things but i think that was something really lovely :)

There was a beautiful 'Order of Service' which had a really nice photo on the front and a picture of a penguin on the back :) She really loved penguins :) I brought her a cuddly one for christmas once :)
There were a couple of beautiful readings and poems which had everyone sobbing, it was pretty tough to see all my friends (and teachers) so upset. They were all so brave though.

I just hope Miss Nicol realised what a difference she made to us all. She taught me so much and i just wish i'd had a chance to thank her. She was a wonderful lady, taken from us way to soon, and im so thankful for all the amazing memories i have of her :')

R.I.P Miss Nicol

Loved always and never forgotten xxx

Poorlyish :(

I hate fact that i STILL haven't been managing to find time in my busy little life to write my blog. But i guess it doesnt have to be everyday :( Once in a while will still be nice to look back on. :)
Im sooo poorly :(
Been off work yesterday and today and i really cant afford to be! :( Iv got a banging headache, temperature, incredibly sore throat and i keep coughing to the point where i either bleed or throw up :( I also havent slept for 4 days :( Bad times.
Im supposed to be singing at Miss Nicols funeral tomorrow and at the moment i have no voice :( Its going to be a pretty difficult day anyway without feeling like im about to cough myself into a coma :(
Cant believe how quickly the weeks are flying by! The weddings creeping up really fast! We've arranged for the bridesmaids to have their fitting on the 18th Feb, which will be a big job done :) Im realy looking forward to that.
God, im gonna be sooo ready for three weeks on honeymoon :) wherever it is that we're going :)
I cant wait!
Anyway, im gonna try and go back to bed and maybe actually get some sleep!
Dont see it happening tbh :(
xxx